I hope you will recognize (if not now, someday at least) how melodramatic you are being. And what a crappy communicator of your feelings you are. After all these long phonecalls, trips here and there, time and feelings invested, talk about the future, this is your way??? I am just so incredibly disappointed, I don't know what to say. Except that if this was how you were going to go out, glad it happened sooner rather than later. Really feeling glad I bought that nonrefundable $270 plane ticket. thanks. But that doesn't really matter, does it. No, the worst part is just that you had to be such a complete asshole in the end. Jesus. I would try to win you back over if I thought there was a point. You don't love me - you obviously only care about yourself. Your way has consistently been to shut me out and wreak havoc on our relationship by getting your flirt on with your cyber girlfriends any time I have made you angry or hurt. That's not how I have treated you, even though you have hurt me too. I think even you could see past your own fucking nose to recognize that. Now I'm going to take a klonopin and write in my diary about how I got tricked into falling for a user pretending to care about me, but really only caring about his own self-aggrandizing scheme. I'm sure you're already onto the next conquest, getting your mind off me with whatever other little website fan of yours is the flavor of the month. It's really too bad. Good luck growing the fuck up.
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