Anyway, the reason why I stopped emailing you, and the reason for the void, wasn't so much antipathy as just a total lack of interest. I'd sunk so much into it for so long, and when it finally felt you were sort of coming around I was just too tired to care anymore. So I pretty much felt like a blank slate. No real feelings about anything. And, it is somewhat true what that girl said to you in her email. You like to play with people online. I don't think I was the only one. There's this strange psychological manipulation that wouldn't come off right in real life. But anyway. I started reading your site again, and I realized it was pretty silly of me to just cut you off. You're a little obsessive about your tastes, but at least you've got great taste. You're passionate about the same kinds of things. And you really did mean it when you said you wanted to be friends always. I don't know. You've been silly, and weird, and too thin, and obsessive, and manipulative, and condescending. But still. You are worth it, and I apologize. m